My Stys

For almost 3 years, I've had stys on my eyelids. Stys are caused by either oily skin, makeup, or contacts. Generally, my family have had stys before, but they were temporary. Stys can go away on their own after a certain amount of time. If stys do show up, it is advised to use a warm compress against the area twice a day.

However, I have had my stys for 2 whole years without going to see a doctor. It's too late for me to use compresses for it to go away--I need minor surgery.

I've never had surgery before so you can imagine how scared I am. Stys don't impair your vision, but they do create big ugly bumps on your eyes. I do want the surgery, but I'm also afraid of what could happen. I know it's just minor surgery, but I'm still afraid. After the doctor's visit, I immediately started crying for a hard hour. My mom was there trying to ease my mood, but it didn't work.

I just thought about all that could go wrong. I thought about how much I wanted this surgery because of a materialistic reason that they're "ugly." Am I really that obsessed with vanity that I would pay money to get these off my face? Am I really the type to care so much about public opinion that I would cause myself potential blindness for a chance of clear eyes?

The answer is: yes. I am admitting to myself that I am doing this for vanity reasons, but I'm also doing this out of fear. Sometimes, when stys stretch, they can cause small twangs of pain--almost close to the pain of a contact lense that is inserted incorrectly. I don't want my stys to also become infected. If that were to happen, I would be in larger trouble than I already am now. Almost as an intervention, I can rest assured that my reasons for clearing my stys are not for just vanity. They are for the pure amount of health concerns...

Yet, that doesn't push away my edging fear of surgery...

I know that people survive surgery all the time and since this is a minor case, it won't have as many problems or potential injuries, but who can blame me for being scared? There's nothing to do, but let those anesthetics take me over so it can be done with.

Selling Used Books! :)

I've finished quite an amount of books and here are the list I am willing to sell back to you. The pricing for each book does not include shipping. If you live within the Boston area, shipping is free! Compare my prices to any store. I'm cheaper! :D Information on Each Book: -The pricing is not more than what I paid for it. - They are ALL in hard cover unless stated otherwise. - They are ALL in new - good condition. - I really like all of them. :)

Dear John Nicholas Sparks $14.00

I still Have It...I just Cant Remember Where I Put It Rita Rudner $10.00

Longitude Dava Sobel $10.00

Obedience Will Lavender $14.00

Rocket Boys Homer H. Hickam Jr. (Paperback) $12.00

The Color of Water James McBride (Paperback) $11.00

The Darker Side Cody McFadyen $14.00

The Lovely Bones 14.00

The Wednesday Letters Jason F. Wright $10.00

True Detectives Jonathan Kellerman $10.00

Very Valentine Adriana Trigiani $11.00

What I did for Love - Susan Elizabeth Phillips $14.00

Use www.borders.com to search descriptions of each book and tell me if you're interested. Also, check out that pricing and compare it! :) If you are interested in a book, e-mail me at aznangel421356@yahoo.com or send me a facebook message!

New Haircut...

I got a haircut :( Extremely disppointed...
My mom told me that I could finally get what I want: full frontal bangs and lots of layers while keeping my length...but when my stylist was JUST about to cut my bangs, she said, "are you SURE?" At that point, I started to doubt what I wanted and she was becoming a great influence over my mother.
At the end, I got long angled bangs, long layers, and a random fringe...(Sad face) Did I mention she chopped 2 inches off my hair? I didn't realize 2 inches was that much. -_- I'm not one of those lucky people who grow an inch every month. I grow 7 inches in a whole year ~_~ ughughgughgugh.
By the end of march, I intend to go to a different salon and get the bangs that I want and the layers that I want. :( Now my hair falls 2 inches past my shoulders and when it's this short, I can't curl it at all! I really wanted to be able to curl my hair during Anime Boston....it can't happen unless my hair suddenly grows back its missing 2 inches. :( Please please please grow.